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Tuesday, May 1st, 2007
3:23 pm - Wow, no body uses livejournal anymore...
I miss my life. friends... fun... me... in a general sense.
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Saturday, August 19th, 2006
3:00 pm - My Psychic Synopsis
So, on Thursday (17/8) I had my cards done by a professional card reader. She came to my house, she was actually a pretty nice woman. Here's what I got:

Current Job
- very successful; recognition for good work will come quickly; will make me financially stable (key priority for me right now, and will be taken care of soon, which will lead to everything falling into place)

Personal State
- surrounded by personal energy. There are no external negative forces around me, and negativity is coming from myself and is completely unnecessary
- some sort of reunion is in the works, possible in June. I will be asked to help organize.

- parents (especially mom) will persistently offer help and assistance, but I won't need it.
- Parents will acquire a new appliance that will embed itself into our lives (it is not a tv)
- someone will be pregnant (she didn't get a strong family vibe, assuming it's a friend); she will either be due in march or become pregnant in march.
- any instability with friends will dissipate... right now, we're just feeling out our independence from the group... KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT!!!!!... it will only make things worse, and things will take longer to get back to normal.

- will be someone in my life that's not quite right for me; I realize it, but I may not want to break it off for fear of hurting his feelings.

-2 years down the line....
--My life is going to be exactly where I want it (the vision I have will more or less come to fruition)
---Those things I try, I will ultimately succeed in
---Moving out is coming up, financially able to, but nervous/unwilling to leave security of home
---Will meet the man I'm going to marry
---- going to be someone new, I don't know him yet ( this is very good news, considering I think my current crush is a waste of time, this just confirms it)
---- going to be perfect for me; she drew the devil and the lovers when speaking of him, meaning will have a complete relationship (sexual passion as well as emotional stability and compatibility)
---- will be in the medical field
---- he'll be the last thing i'm looking for; he's going to come around when i'm focusing on having fun, since my financials and work are all settled in.
-- very financially successful, possibly using my finance degree
-- current job is going to take me exactly where I want to go and make me a lot of money
-- a celebration with lots of people, probably in the springtime at this house (possible my wedding)
- By 25, i'll be happy; I'll have the things that I want, and deserve.
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Saturday, May 27th, 2006
2:20 am - Very Interesting Horoscope Today....
Get back in touch with a former coworker. They may have a big opportunity for you.

You adore heated discussions, but a debate may turn downright fiery under the current astral influences. Remind others -- and yourself -- that it's all in good fun. Don't take it personally, and all will be well.

Daily Extended

Just because someone is out of sight doesn't mean they're out of mind. A former coworker may reappear on the scene now, and they offer a missing link between you and several opportunities -- including greater wealth and a hotter romance. Keep an eagle eye out for unfamiliar phone numbers or email addresses, because everything isn't as you assume it to be. Sometimes relationships or other types of connections are circular - and they come back around to make things complete.

...sometimes, i really wish these things were accurate
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
12:21 pm - The Horoscope Perplexes Me Today.....
You may have to sacrifice some of your free time now to get even more of it later.

You and you-know-who have quite a cozy little romantic entanglement going on, but loosen your grip or it could start to feel like a chokehold. Giving someone a little space makes them appreciate you all the more.

... does anyone know who 'you-know-who' is? Because the 'you' does not stand for me. The only people I've even seen in the last week are Steph, Michelle, and Tom (Brian once).
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
1:29 pm - This Could Not Have Come At A Better Time....

Now that you're gaining control of things, your pace will stop being so frantic.

Expect an influx of cash very soon. Until then, it's time to tighten your belt and take a long, hard look at expenses. After all, when you get this financial windfall, you want it to last -- so get some good money habits in place now.
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
10:29 am - quick update...
Interesting horoscope today:

Tell a stressed friend that you're only too glad to help -- they need your support.

When did you turn into the Dear Abby of your social set? While it's flattering to have others rely on your opinion, this could be a lot more time consuming than you would like. Avoid getting wrapped up in other people's drama.

Florida was amazing! It was just the thing I needed to forget about the plane crash that was my life last week. I had so much fun with everyone I hung out with. I wish I could have stayed longer. If I didn't have school, I'd totally be down there. It's not like I have work (ha ha).

Yesterday I thought was going to suck. First day back from vacation, back to school, and my first real day of being "fired." Well, I was wrong. It wasn't so bad. I got up and went to my one class. My brother drove by me on his way home from vo-tech and gave me a ride home. I sat on the couch for about six hours watching the Gauntlet 2 marathon. I went over to the shop to visit Joe. And here's the best part of the day (and probably this week):

JOE LET ME DRIVE HIS MUSTANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This has been my dream car since I was 14. Everyone talked me out of wanting one (bad in crappy weather, bad on gas). So, I started wanting a VW Jetta. Yea, I want a Mustang again. The car was absolutely beautiful. It handled so smooth. I've never driven one before, and I just smiled the whole time. Joe also said he would let me drive it again! Awesome! So, yea.. that's it. I'm going to go back read Chris' LJ now to re-read my answers to his questions since we were talking about this weekend.
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
3:07 am - It's been awhile I know, but this prolly won't cheer anyone up....
So, I've got a lot of stuff running through my head. The last month has been excruciating on me - mentally, well, and a little physically (I keep hurting myself at work, more on that later). This time last year I was knee deep in Italy. The past month, a year ago, I became close with Savanna after a weekend trip to Florence. She is now someone I hope to have in my life forever. I love her dearly, and it hurts that I never get to really spend any time with her. I was having all of my visitors in Rome. My Mom's visit really changed our relationship. I never thought we would be close, but her coming to see me just made us so much closer. I spent spring break in dublin - which, compared to this year's suckage, was like finding Atlantis.

I have just spent the last month feeling kind of down - no, really down. I spend a lot of time wondering if I just should have stayed over there. One thing, and I hate bitching about this stuff, is the single thing. I'm 22 years old, and have been single for - 22 years. Granted I wasn't dating for about 13 of those years, but still... I kind of feel like, to be 22 and never have any kind of romantic relationship is kind of lame. And, I can't really figure out how to fix it. Guys just don't seem to like me. I can't figure it out. My friends all think I'm awesome... even my guy friends. It's just no one is interested. There are three things that are making it slightly worse than it usually is. And, I don't fault any of these people. This is my own insecurity about the situation. I, under no circumstance, would ask them to change their life, or stop talking to me about their life, just because I'm some idiot who can't get past this. 1) My current crush. I won't get into a lot of details - those that I want to know, know. But, he just frustrates me so much. I don't want to like him. I try not to. And when I start pulling away from it, he does something to pull me back in. And I'm not talking like doing something cute in general. I'm talking doing something for me, that is just above and beyond the call of friendship. 2) A friend is currently planning her wedding. And she wants me actively involved. This is an amazing thing. It makes me feel infinitely special that she wants me involved. At the same time, I feel like crap that she has this amazing relationship, and I haven't even had a crappy one. Tonight she was telling me the story of when she first knew that she loved him, and the first time they said it to eachother. It was the cutest story, and I just realized that I desperately want that. 3) This one stems back to where I was last year. As most of you know, I met a guy in Ireland. Now, this guy was interested. I even had my first date with him, which was amazing, and totally me. We went to the National Gallery and to a little coffee shop afterwards to talk about our favorite pieces. I think we could have had something. Despite both are better judgements, we let ourselves fall for each other. I recently re-read his emails - this was probably a bad idea. I know that he wasn't the one. But he was someone. Unfortunately, I had to go back to Rome, and ultimately the U.S. It just sucks wondering 'what if?'

So, there's my depressing state of mind. Physically, in one month, I've managed to cut myself four times at work. I have burned myself twice (one pretty serious - the entire grip of my left hand). This past monday was the winner though. While walking back to the sink late at night, I slipped on the wet floor. I came crashing down on the worse of my two bad knees, cracking it hard on the tile floor. Two weeks ago, and I've still got echos of it, I got hit with this awful sickness. No vomitting, but I couldn't eat for a week. I slept for about 36 hours strait through, and spent the rest of the week in bed. I was even sent home from work on Friday and Saturday because I was turning different colors and could barely stand up. I think one of the reasons I got sick was because, as my dad likes to say, I constantly burn the candle at both ends. Everything just caught up with me, one top of my mental distress.

Sorry for the depressive entry. I just needed to get it out. And, I haven't written any of this down. Besides, I don't think anyone even checks Livejournal anymore. They're all over at MySpace.
Comments: 1 Dusted Vamp - Dust A Vampire.
Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
1:34 pm - Instead of doing homework...

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He will say: Get out.
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... As previously suspected, I will be residing "downstairs" in the afterlife.... guess it's a good thing I did all those sexual favors for Satan
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Friday, January 20th, 2006
11:39 am - Because I'm Bored...

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Moonlitegoddes!

  1. Moonlitegoddes kept at the window will keep vampires at bay.
  2. There are 336 dimples on moonlitegoddes.
  3. The colour of moonlitegoddes is no indication of her spiciness, but size usually is.
  4. If you break moonlitegoddes, you will get seven years of bad luck.
  5. The horns of moonlitegoddes are made entirely from hair.
  6. Only 55 percent of Americans know that the sun is made of moonlitegoddes.
  7. Moonlitegoddes can usually be found in nests built in the webs of large spiders!
  8. Carnivorous animals will not eat another animal that has been hit by moonlitegoddes!
  9. Humans have 46 chromosomes, peas have 14, and moonlitegoddes has 7.
  10. During the reign of Peter the Great, any Russian nobleman who chose to wear moonlitegoddes had to pay a special moonlitegoddes tax.
I am interested in - do tell me about
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
11:19 am - I guess it's time for an update...
Not that I have anything of substance to write. Break pretty much sucked. I drank a whole lot, but actually spent less money that I usually do over break. There was a Rome Reunion, which, was probably the highlight of my whole break (sorry to everyone else I spent break with, I you guys know I still love you all). This semester's going to kick my ass. At this point I think I am one bad grade away from just dropping out.

I was reading this poster on the R3 today. I was trying to read for class, but the woman next to me and the woman in front of me were having this really loud, obnoxious conversation, and making it impossible for me to concentrate. The poster was for depression. It lists 10 signs of depression, and at the bottom, it says that if you experience more than three of the symptoms, you should consult your physician... is it bad that like 8 of them apply to me?

I haven't been sleeping well. It takes me hours to fall asleep. I keep running scenarios through my head. Things I want to happen. Things that happened that I wish happened differently. Things I wanted to say, but didn't. And there's always the overwhelming fear that after I graduate (if I don't drop out) I will be at TPH forever, with the exact same job, making the exact same amount of money, and never do anything with my life. Not that I even know what I want to do. It's becoming that time life, and I have no clue. I don't want to do anything, especially in my field.

Sorry for bummer entry, but certain people get mad when I don't update at all. And, "down" is really all I got goin' on right now.
Comments: 3 Dusted Vamps - Dust A Vampire.
Friday, December 30th, 2005
12:56 am - A Quick Update
So... the holiday season has been very stressful. I got a lot of great gifts for Christmas (... Although, recently I've been trying to figure out why we celebrate it, since no one in my family is really into religion). My birthday was fun. My favorite gift is my new cowboy boots (as anyone who has seen me in the last 5 days knows). New Year's Eve should be interesting. I'm excited to just sit back and watch.

I have to go to my uncle's funeral in about 8 hours. He passed away Wednesday morning. My older brother, and my aunt are both having their own private crises. I've been sick for about two weeks now. Work is slowly killing me. And the highlight of all of this is school starting. That's how bad things are. Of course, there's my own inner turmoil stuff, that I would never write here. I don't want all of the pity responses. I just need a break. A break from absolutely everything. I just wish I could be someone else for just a day. Not an easy person. Not someone who sits around all day. Just someone different.
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
11:44 pm - Real Quick...
My birthday's December 26th. Instead of throwing a party (that i'd have to clean up anyway), I think I'm gonna go to Atlantic City for the day. Anyone's invited. There's some sort of bus system that runs down there, so we'll do that. Just let me know if you want to come, maybe we can get some sort of group rate if there's enough people.

I apologize to those that aren't 21. But, you can't really come, because we'll be going into casinos and you can't go in if you'renot 21
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
4:51 pm - I'm Going!!!
Me and michelle are going! I'm so excited! I hope my 'rents agree to let my brother go!
Comments: Dust A Vampire.
12:07 am - DUDE!!!!!!!!!!
Why do I have no will power?... Michelle presented me with this trip, and I sooooooo want to go! My brother may even be able to go. The only problem I've found, is that they don't allow co-ed rooms. So, i can't room with my brother (and dan, if he comes). That's it. That's the only problem!!! Money's an issue, but when it comes to traveling, we all know i don't let money decide what I do. Ahhhh!... Michelle better pass all her classes.. She's my travel buddy. It just wouldn't feel right going without her.
Comments: 6 Dusted Vamps - Dust A Vampire.
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
11:12 pm - It's Not Procrastinating, if I already did my homework...
Ok... I'm bored. BORED. Capital B, Capital O, Capital R... you get the picture. That's about it. I thought I'd have something to write, but it's nothing I want to commit to word, and have everyone ask me about and worry about. So, I guess this is. Sorry if you were expecting more.
Comments: 4 Dusted Vamps - Dust A Vampire.
Thursday, October 27th, 2005
9:40 pm - I need to kill time before I start procastinating...
So... clearly I have nothing better to do. Let's see... let's see... what could I possibly write about? There's not much going on. I guess we'll start with the basics.

School Motivation seems to be something that has completely left me. I have more than ample time to get my shit done and study - I just don't do it. Keeping my G.P.A. up is the only thing that could/should motivate me, some how, I just can't seem to care. My classes are difficult, but nothing I can't handle if I just buckle down and get my shit together. I can't tell if this rut is from missing Rome, or just really hating my major/Temple in general. It's not even like I'm blowing of work to go out or work more. I'm not. I'm just not doing anything. I am a total waste of life, and sometimes feel like I don't really deserve it.

Work Strange. The last two weeks have been a roller coaster. I'm talking dips, turns, loops, and cork-screws. Josh is no longer with us. Actually typing that is really strange. I guess I thought, naively, that he would be back. He won't be. He says he'll be back to visit, but I doubt it. He has no reason to come back. I probably wouldn't come back after what happened either. Once I finally quit for good (which isn't looking like it'll happen, because I'll never graduate), I probably won't go back. By then, all of the people I like there will be gone. Somehow, my personal life has become the topic of conversation with some people. I don't like that at all. I work very hard to keep my personal life out of that store, and now people are gossiping - but not as strong as the word implies - about my life. I know we have this "family" type situation at work, but my family doesn't even know what's going on in my personal life. Why should my co-workers be discussing it. Don't get the wrong idea. Nothing is going on. They're just talking about it, like it is. Apparently I can't be nice to people without some kind of secret motive. Another reason it's pissing me off is because I don't want it to jeopardize the actual friendships I'm starting to have with some of the people I work with. It's hard to explain without stating specifically what's going on, but, you know me. I like to keep somethings a mystery about myself. (Also, I don't know who reads this. For all I know my boss is reading it right now.)

Social Aside from Wednesday night drunkage, almost nothing is going on here. My craptacular schedule, kind of prohibits me from doing much on the weekends. I close on Fridays, and have an open ended schedule on Saturdays. Which means, if they're dead, I get done at 800p. If they're busy, I could be there till 1000p. I've been working this shift since school started (with the exception of one Saturday) and I've only gotten out of the store at 800p, on two occasions. Hopefully I can get out relatively early this Saturday, because I want to go see Saw II. Anyone's invited. If Michelle winds up working, I may be going alone. It'll probably be a 1000-ish show around here. Like I said, that's about it. There was a crush I was nursing, but, I'm trying to nip that in the bud. Several factors have been brought to my attention, and I kind of don't want to like him for those reasons.

That's about it I guess. My extreme laziness has even effected my writing. I haven't written anything all summer. I tried re-vamping all stories, editing unfinished ones that I have every intention of finishing, but... yea... just but...

Halloween should be fun. I'm having some people over to watch Buffy and Army of Darkness. Have a couple beers. Maybe play some cards. The only down side is I'm pretty much going to be surrounded my couples... or people that are in a couple, but the other half of the couple isn't there. It's always fun being the single person at the party.

current mood: lazy
Comments: 17 Dusted Vamps - Dust A Vampire.
Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
4:18 pm - GO SEE SERENITY!!!!!!!!!!!
So fucking unbelievable!!!!! I've already seen it twice, and am still trying to see people to go back and see it again. I loved every minute of it. Even the parts I hated, I loved, because that's just was JW does. Go see it! It's amazing. You'll cry. You'll laugh. You'll curse the day Joss Whedon picked up a pen. Hopefully, you get inspired to go buy the Firefly series and that'll prompt them to make a sequel.
Comments: 5 Dusted Vamps - Dust A Vampire.
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
10:55 pm - An Update for Savanna
So, I talked to Savanna today, and she told me I have to update more, because she has no idea what's going on with me since I don't. So, here goes it:

There's nothing to report. Classes are : eh. I don't like or dislike most of them. HRM kind of sucks. It's a huge lecture, with really comfortable seats. I have a test tomorrow in it. I had planned to study all day today for it (and my accounting test)... but I wound up falling asleep on my books while watching the Firefly marathon on SciFi. Speaking of, SERENITY comes out on Friday. Everyone should go. I'm so excited. I get overcome with geeker-joy everytime I see the trailer. I cannot wait. Me and Savanna are going. Betsy's working. I invited Karen and Araeia (because I actually got to see them), but I'm not sure if they're going to come.

Work's alright. Things are a little strange right now, so I'm not sure what's going on. Speaking of, my brother should be home any minute with my pizza (study fuel).

I'm also really excited about the Smallville season premiere. I'm so stoked that James Marsters is coming back to TV. And it's not even in new show I have to pick up. He's on one I already love. Plus, Lex Luthor goes bad this season. ABC Family keeps showing clips from season 4, because they start airing them this week, and they keep showing the part where Lex says, "You were right, Clark. I am the villain of the story." I LOVE THAT!

Wednesday night are the night I go out. It's been a pretty regular thing since the first week of school. Me, Michelle, Steph, Brian... Drew and Sean usually meet us there. There being Bootlegger's. It's fun. Most of the bands are decent. We also usually go to Tom Jones after for dinner/breakfast. It's nice. I like having a regular thing with friends. I never really had that before. Unless Buffy after dinner, while drinking tea and smoking cigs every night with Savanna in Rome counts.

So, i guess that's it. Nothing truly interesting.

current mood: lazy
Comments: 2 Dusted Vamps - Dust A Vampire.
Friday, September 2nd, 2005
1:46 am - First Week of School...
So, technically, I guess the first week isn't quite over. But, I don't see myself getting time to update over the weekend. I know no one really cares, but I write here for my own benefit, not that of others.

Intro to Risk Mgtmnt The prof is really cool. I like him a lot. He's really energetic, and loves teaching, which is hard to find. The material isn't as boring as it sounds either. We have a chapter a week to read, and articles. The articles are all really inciteful, and actually accentuate the reading, which I have found to be rare.

Operations and Mgtmnt My lecture. The prof seems ok, but the lecture hall is way too comfy. I try to be attentive in class, and the material is semi-interesting, since I'm actually managing now. The seats just induce sleep.

Int'l Trade My only foreign prof. However, his accent's not as bad as the others I have had. He tries to make the class interesting, and he runs things a little how my Int'l Finance prof from Rome ran things.

Intermediate Accounting 1 Definitely going to be hard. The prof, I love. He reminds me of the prof I had for Financial Accounting I had at NU, and I really liked him. I also did really well in his class. Financial Accounting was much kinder to me than Managerial Accounting. This'll probably be my hardest class, so I'll just have to study more.

Professional Development This class will actually be useful. The prof (my only female prof) is very animated. I like her. Also, it almost made me like Temple.

So, that's my semester. I've decided not to join Hyphen again this year. Between work, and my classes, I don't think I'll have the time. Looking at this week alone, I may not have time to sleep. On a non-school side, I went out Wednesday night. I went out with Steph Kay, Brian McLaughlin, Drew (I don't know his last name), Jim ( I don't know his last name), Sean Gallagher, and Michelle. A very strange crew, indeed. I had so much fun though. I really needed the night out. Steph and I might make Wednesdays at Bootleggers a weekly ritual. On the plus side, my busy schedule with work and school will keep me from thinking about and doing things I don't want to. Unfortunately, it leaves little time for fun.

Things at work are going ... ok. There's definitely some upper management tension. I think I'm technically middle managment, so it doesn't really effect me, I just get to hear about it. This weekend should be interesting. Most of our girls are away, so I'm working the floor. Will definitely be an interesting experience... I'm curious to see how many customers I piss off your kill.

So, that's it for now... oh yea... I still miss Rome.

current mood: aggravated
Comments: 1 Dusted Vamp - Dust A Vampire.
Monday, August 29th, 2005
9:55 am - First Day on Campus...
All I have to say is, " I miss Temple Rome!!!!"
Comments: 2 Dusted Vamps - Dust A Vampire.
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